For S.

so you have let go
all i was sayin
was that we're all lonely individuals and however close you get,
there is a point you cannot pass over
i'm happy that you're happy
if you are actually
well , for me...
i guess its not what i seek
that, i understood a little late but its ok
its how i become the person i am
that does not seek happiness

we always pay for what we do
thats my way to mend the lives i broke

seeing what you say yes it actually breaks my heart
that you misunderstood it all
you know its not always about how long you've walked ,how many times you've called,how many miles you drove..or even how many times you visited me lyin there in a phsych ward...its just something else...
Thinkin about you listening to those beautiful music and when i'm on that motorbike riding looking at the sea, feeling the heat and hearing the wind and the cicadas....well, i was thinkin about you at those beautiful times and it was worth more than a phonecall in my opinion but you see, my opinion is not always what you want to see.I see it now

I'm sorry if i made you feel worthless..not loved or not loved enough, i loved you more than anything , i still do,but you see we have to make tough decisions sometimes...and i see you have made yours...i'll always be there for you ,you know that, but less and less by the day ...thats how you want it..Maybe to maintain your life with the ones you're living it with or you're tryin to find some other way or you're just escaping from yourself...me being the bad girl leading you to drink more,you being the bad girl leading meto drink more...and do some crazy stuff,it just didnt happen whatever we did and we did fight, to the death.. I know.
Dont be sad.It'll all turn out beautifully i believe. We both layed our beds, and now we're gonna sleep in it.

I love you.
G.